I'm So Sorry

I look in the mirror everyday, and I see your beautiful face, I see what my mistakes drove away. I miss you everyday, and I get sad because I never realised how important you are to me. You told me to cherish you, that you are a Queen and will leave me someday if I don't repent from my ways. I took your words for granted, and you left me....I paid for my stupid mistakes. Oh, I thought I could live without you, but I lied to myself.
I remember every second we spent together, I remember your moonlight smiles, I remember the day you ate eba and egusi soup and said Mum's a good cook. I remember your words of upliftment. I remember how you whispered to my ears anytime we made love, telling me not to break your heart and the allegiance you pledged. I miss your soft kisses, I miss everything about you. I listen to your songs everyday, and I go to bed with a heavy heart. The ceilings are murmuring, they wonder why I always stare at them.
You are a Queen and I failed to realise that, I messed up and paid dearly. You warned me; I never listened.
I saw the Suya man the other day, he asked about you and I walked away feeling sad. The Super Market owner asked about you too; Mum have been asking about you and I haven't given her a reasonable response.
I am ashamed of the person I have become. I told hurtful lies, I allowed ego to make decisions for me. I listened to my demons, and they deceived me. You gave me lots of Second Chance, and I misused them. How I wish we could be reborn, so I can right my wrongs.

You are an awesome Lady with a beautiful mind. You have a golden heart and you are so kind, and generous. You brought beautiful colours into my Life, and taught me how to ignore distractors and rise above hate. You advised me to be focus and always pursue my dreams. You placed your life on the line for my happiness, but I made you angry; how wicked I was. I know Karma will visit me very soon, and am ready for its strikes; oh Karma, be merciful.

I know I can never have you again, I know I should move on. I promise to be a better person, I promise to always treat Ladies as Queens; that is what I learned from you. I wish nothing but the best for you, and I pray to find someone just like you; someone with a beautiful mind. If you read this today, from the bottom of my heart and with teary eyes; I'm SO SORRY.